Joined clubs!

Well of all the amazing things, both of my computers have been totalled due to... well nevermind due to what, (or who).

Let me introduce to you a wonderful thing called irony. Out of all the 9673401203 sites in the world, only [link] has a problem with my computer and shuts down for fun when the screen loads. Brilliant, eh? I don't believe it either.

Somewhere there's speaking, it's already coming in
Oh and it's rising in the back of your mind
You never could get it unless you were fed it
Now you're here, and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen, listen and wait for
The echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

You're waiting for someone to put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

But you'll just sit tight and watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine with all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island and into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice, but you still hide away
Anger of angels who won't return

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

Today I woke up with the funniest feeling ever.

It haunted me for 4 hours, all the way till 9 o'clock, and then they vanished, leaving me just puzzled over why I would have /ever/ felt like that for.

I think, I will stay in bed longer, in that case.

And I just don't know, I just don't seem to know where the future lies, in /any/ of this- it seems that I'm on the verge of something new, something unexpected; I don't know while I stand on the edge... if yonder is a waterfall or a waterslide.

I'm too afraid to look. In any case, mist obscures vision.

...What if I start from the middle, one end, or the other? What if I miss completely one route that would lead to a good ending? What if...


What if, what if, what if.

Possibility and permutation. In this bracket, if mere numbers can be so distressing- what more of life's own?

So I ask you. What preparation have you done, to ensure the future? What preparation, indeed.

And all this is moot, really, because we walk by faith, not by sight- nothing is simpler than just blind faith, leading to a sort of sardonic indifference towards life.

Apathetic way to be...?

But there's a new year ahead. New year, new resolution. New resolutions, and resolution to this as well.


"But I have hope for the future."

I know.